By Katherine Darlington
Strong and hungry for the sun, the flower reaches toward heaven
Spreading its saffron petals, unafraid of what it might tap
Should the wind begin to knock...
You, a whole eight years of life
Sometimes locked, bound, in your own world
Im just beginning to know you
Mourning comes to me remembering what will never be
Yet you are
Here
Not gone
Just gone into your extraordinary world
For awhile
The sunflowers sticky petals are sturdy
And the Mason jar glows when the sun streams in just so,
As the flower is strengthened from the sun
But no, it shouldnt be picked;
My favorite flower
Is meant to be growing wild out there
Where the unbroken things grow
You were picked and placed in my world
Your name is Joshua
Your grace is felt
Your strength enormous
Yet should you be here or out there
Where the unbroken things grow
I know you yet you know not the daystar
That glows steadily for the world
Sunflower
Joshua
Sun
These three bind tightly to my chest
As you hand me my favorite flower
You call it Sunflower
I call it
Joshua.
By Katherine Darlington
The days were heavy, undecided
My dreams were empty, my arms empty
But when I awoke one beautiful day
You were standing near me
Hair tousled, skinny little boy, dressed in
Pajamas
I knew you were my angel
You were the hope I had been given
So I believed you would be born
Then you came to earth
Not what I expected yet very much the same
At five years of age you were the angel from my dream
Five years old and I began to know you
As you emerged from your world that I cant name
Can I even whisper the word?
Autistic
Five years old the angel was
Five years old and then you were born
That makes you three, not eight
I try to understand your world
And you struggle to understand mine
Angel,
I can never be taken from you
Because you and me --
We understand the world between pavement and sand
Layer upon layer you have peeled my soul
Revealing to me
What had been missing:
My angel.
By Katherine Darlington
What is a friend, he who throws words to you and you bat at them
Trying to win a point, a score
What is a friend, he who laughs at the way you talk?
And you ask why your sister
Has friends that play
They dont throw things at her
Friends, they can be books, I say, or dogs
You have a friend in Muffin
The black Labrador we searched for
Until we knew she was right for you
Friends, they can be without heart
Visionless, empty-souls
You gaze through the glass at your sisters friends
Laughter misunderstood, laughter far away
Friends bound tightly for life
You decide to play with your friend
But I see your single tear;
And as you and the black dog race through the yard
My eyes become liquid
Because everyone needs friends and I have not been truthful
Because you are my son and because I havent forgiven those
Who hit you with brutal words
And ring my doorbell and ask to see
Their friend.
By Katherine Darlington
Januarys silence is being heard I hear it in the call of
the geese
That fly above, I hear it in the way my heart feels;
Januarys colors will soon become alive
And spring will make its way into life
Cold surrounds us but its meant to be, just as sure as
The stars shine on crisp nights and the sun blazes
In mid-summer; just as sure as the sun is seen over the hill
At dawn
So must this time of awakening be slow but steady
Its mission almost complete;
Like the roses bud not yet awake
We, too, are asleep in the silence of winter
In the stillness of the time when we prepare for life
To resume a new form, a new place, a new spirit
Is on its way, never to be stopped
Not a dream or a wish or a thought but genuine
Truth almost unfolded
The awakening of my senses will be magnified a thousand times
My look at life will be multiplied greatly
The sun will be warmer, the winter days perhaps not as cold
As I am awakened with the truth that all is meant to be,
As surely as the sun climbs over the hill
As surely as new born colts continue to stand on weak legs
But they grow strong; they have the breath of life
And soon I will be awakened to the song
Of my life, a dance, a play, a symphony I hope ends never
Even with the end of time...
I have been writing poetry
and stories for many years, and publications include a story in Bay Forest
Publishing (March 2001), a short story in Lines in the Sand, and poems
published in major poetry anthologies for the years 1980, 1982, 1983,
1984 and 1985. I also received an Honorable Mention in a 1981 Joyce Kilmer
Memorial Poetry Contest. For one year, I served as Editor for Resolve,
a newsletter for infertile couples. Although I am a licensed massage therapist
and love my work, my true passion is writing and I am making time daily
to work on stories and poetry. I recently finished a novel and am seeking
a publisher.
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